Well, it’s been busy around here; although I still find hours where I have nothing to do. Kind of lost my motivation again. I guess that’s partly why I’m re-reading those trilogies. The women escape from problems and find themselves in a beautiful place; they find home. The novels explore the journey and hurdles they face. It feels like travelling with these women just prepares me that little bit more for when I make my own journey.
I’ve been very focused lately on pride vs. selfless acts. Something happened with my other half, and my first thought was to be there for him. When he didn’t need me as much as I had prepared, I felt almost useless.
And then I scolded myself for being so selfish.
But how does one stop selfish thoughts, without selfless ones turning into a matter of pride?
I’m hoping that once I get out there and face the world, I’ll realise how far I’ve gone over the line of self-love, and see the reality.
Enough negative self talk.
I didn’t even notice that it was the summer solstice this year. It’s usually one of those one I really work on – I’ve got a specific top I wear to celebrate it, and I always take a few pennies and glitter with me for the Fae.
This year, I went shopping with a friend from college. We had a meal at perfect pizza, which is one of the things I panic over – going out for meals. It was quite enjoyable though. I bought a black corset from Ann summers; a well-known shop for sex toys and clothes. (www.annsummers.com)
This is just a black corset though, honest.
So that’s my little present to myself for the solstice.
I hope everyone’s enjoying themselves as summer kicks in.