It’s currently raining, but the sun’s shining through the clouds and oh, stopped raining, give it five minutes, it’ll be back. I think the weather really reflects my mood today.(or am I a reflection of it? :P)
I want to briefly comment on orthography (That means spelling). Different Pagans use different terms for the Sabbats; and spell and pronounce them differently too. I spell Beltain with an ‘I’ and without an ‘e’ because it feels right for me. Don’t ask me how a spelling can feel right, because I don’t have a clue. Same reason I call the Autumn Equinox ‘Modron’ and not ‘Mabon’ I suppose. It just represents the picture of nature at this time better for me; it resonates best with me. I spelt it differently the other day since it appears to be the most common form of spelling, and it went better with the picture. =P
My oil burner decided to send me a sign and splat my wall with essential oil… It’s the second wall in my room to get splatted; I just covered the marks on the other wall with posters of two butterflies when I rearranged my furniture.
I’ve been listening to some Pagan podcasts today and I’m learning a little at a time, which is the best way really. Ah, I can see blue sky. I’ve made my three mantra’s for Beltain, I made a little paper totem type poster of my 9 personality attributes I want to bring to my life; and tomorrow mum’ll try and pick me up a basil plant. It’ll go on my windowsill, and I’ve platted together three ribbons, one of each of my mantras. I think that since I couldn’t have a maypole, just plaiting three bits of ribbon was enough for me to feel like I’d actually done something. Since this has always been a lover’s festival in my opinion; and this time last year I was struggling with my own dislike of myself, I’m feeling quite free this year.
I wrote a blog post on the 29th on theism, based around chapter three of the book I’m working through: Dianne Sylvan’s “The Circle Within”. It’ll be up around the weekend, and I might slip in a picture of my basil with it.
I’ve got to a point where I’m starting to get a bit stressed out over my exams, and I’m feeling a bit disconnected, which makes meditation hard.
Oh, it’s raining again =]
So tonight is for myself; and for as much of my other half as I can get. Being in a long-distance relationship sucks the most at these times, in my opinion.
It’s stopped raining.
So yes, what are you doing for Beltain?
Currently Reading: The Tibetan Art of Serenity, Christopher Hansard.
Currently Listening: Beltaine: Episode 11, DarklyFey: http://darklyfey.com/blog